The Truth.

have been having lots of emotions this past few months. i'm the kind who gets affected by things, especially to people whom i really care for. Maybe for some, its easy for them to express how they feel to people who they like or care for. but for me, its like the hardest thing to do, opening up to the person i like. i was once an asshole who liked people easily, but after a relationship which failed after 2 years, and waiting for someone who i used to like, it really tested me alot.

its like a test to see how patient you can get, just to please that special someone. but life isnt about smooth rides, or things which go as how you want to. its about the pain and sacrifices you go through. letting yourself hurt and to put a smile on that someone's face is really priceless.

although we're just the best of friends, we can talk about anything or everything, but the thing that we find so hard to talk about is, ABOUT US. opening to one another seems to be the hardest thing. i dont know about her, but to me. THIS IS THE HARDEST. it was really easy for me before with others, it was so easy to tell them the words I LIKE YOU. but why is it so hard now?

i used to say alot of things, expressing things. but now words seem lost in my mouth. how does it feel, wanting to tell a person so much how much you feel, how much you really do care and like the person when its so hard to just form those 3 words. its not like i really want to hide things, wanting the other person to get hurt by me. telling someone you like them is easy, but doing things to show how much they mean to you really is the hardest thing. but for me, i tend to do it the hard way. and yet i fail.

i've been trying hard to prove every feeling i have. but things, people around tend to make everything a misunderstanding. so what can i do? "action speaks louder than words". but to me, the feeling inside you speaks the loudest, if it was given a chance of course. a chance that has assurance that it wouldnt turn ugly.

there were moments which i felt, we were gonna lose each other. the arguments, the misunderstandings about others and stuffs. all this felt like i've been trying so hard to be perfect, not to let her down, but instead we were heading to an end. its not about losing any ordinary person, its about losing your BESTFRIEND, someone who matters. and after our misunds, we just move on, astho the feeling of being hurt, the problems we had were never there.

there was this song on the radio, and all i remembered was the word TRYING. the beat, the rhythm were stuck in my head, but the lyrics of the song just couldnt form. and so i did what every teenager would, that is, Google.and the result? i found this song called THE TRUTH by KRIS ALLEN.

the lyrics is exactly what i am feeling. and especially at that moment when i was really down. hope you guys enjoy this song =)

THE SONG IS IN MY MEDIA PLAYER, JUST CLICK THE 'NEXT' BUTTON =)

and to that special someone, if you read this, this is exactly how i feel inside. i'm sorry for everything.

Lying next to you
Wishing I could disappear
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air

It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it
It's an avalanche that looms above our heads
And we don't believe it

Trying to be perfect, trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet are crumbling
The walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here, holding up the roof
'Cause it's easier than telling the truth

I still keep your photographs
I remember how we used to laugh
I can't keep on losing sleep
If you're ok with being torn in half

It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it
It's an avalanche that looms above our heads
And we don't believe it

Trying to be perfect, trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet are crumbling
The walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here, holding up the roof
'Cause it's easier than telling the truth

Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
And let the rain come in
Stop pretending that it's not ending
And let the end begin

Trying to be perfect, trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet are crumbling
The walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here, holding up the roof
'Cause it's easier than telling the truth